So, I've decided to phase out blogger and phase in livejournal. Its all neat and my brother is on it and stuff. *Obsolete*

Actually, my blog home is now http://melissa-house.blogspot.com where you can find me posting about the recession and poor skills. But in a pleasant, upbeat way!

So, 3 posts in a whole term.. might be a record. Anyway, to breifly update, I was feeling much better for like, a week or 2, and now I'm once again in the dumps. Anyway, I can't wait for school to be over so I can go escape to my dad's and get some nurturing. I read the ladder theory today and I found it incredibly uncool. I also watched a bunch of Sailor moon, which made me feel better, and I made a box cake. I think I may go out for a walk. Its getting dusky, and it looks pretty and fresh air is good. I am so filled with turmoil that it is ridiculous but there is not much to do excersize helps these things. I must try hard to be positive. I wonder how Egil's is going. I'm sortof glad I didn't go. Maybe I'll make some Jello. I was going to record the Family guy, but it seems to be nascar. If this doesn't change in 5 minutes, I'll be perplexed. and possibly put in a random video. I remember that summer of 2002 where I would hang around nocturnally with G&P all summer, and the movies and gaming and hotness and whatnot. I need to talk to Jay about some stuff that I'd like to write about, but should probably talk to him about first. ok, about that dusky walky...

I actually feel like writing.. but its just venting really. More or less I am uncharachteristicly angry and jealous. I am angry at the universe that doesn't go my way, I am jealous of everyone walking around acting happy and everyone who mentions their family, oh, and everyone who hangs out with Jay. I feel so isolated, and like I really need to express myself, but as soon as I go out in public or see anyone, I get really self-concious and can't think of anything to say. Its dark here, and it smells funny, and I wanted to go out tonight, but I couldn't get it up to call anyone. So now I feel frustrated, and pathetic for not doing anything about it. and probably by tomorrow mornin I will also feel embarrased for having shared this with the world. (but for the moment, I don't care)

So, I'm posting, due to popular demand.. sortof. So whats happened in the last month? Mostly, I have been very tired and emotional all the time. And I had dental work which has been giving me pain for the last 3 weeks. I guess my mother dies, and Dan drinks, and I wait 4 months and become inconsolably mopey.

a lot has happened recently.
I went to coronet and had a good time with Kati, Jay, Valerie, and Piper, I went home to see my dear old Dad, I bought a computer (Dell laptop), Jay's friends from Washington came to visit, liked it, and have rented an apartment 5 blocks away. Jay has moved out (in with them). (no, no trouble with the relationship, just needing more space). And I start school tomorrow! Busy! A little peopled out! Too much excitement for Lauras. And my work schedule is a bit excessive, but generally, stuff is fine. Yay!

I'm rally glad I went to coronet. I had a really good time, and assuaged my fears that you can never go home at least as far as SCA is concerned. And it was also go to go home. Definately weird. My Dad's girlfriend is really nice. I think she's good for him, but it was hard for me to get used to her a bit. I guess that is part of the growing and changing... New things are always a bit uncomfortable. Especially when old things were so nice. It kindof just hit me last night that I am making plans to do things with My Dad and her. But overall, It was really great to see Dad, and the house is so comfortable and awsome. It was sunny and wonderful. I went through all the jewelry. I am meant to get rid of some of it. I might.

Now I'm off to go do easter things. I just had breakfast with Jason Mandy and Jay at the breadboard. so tasty.... MMMM so very tasty.

well well well. Its dead week and I had no idea. This morning was FAR too eventful and involved getting very upset about nothing much, cleaning up a broken bottle, eating pizza and sampling new toothpaste that the dentist gave me in tiny squeezy packets (Orange flavor!) And someone trying to kill Jay. That someone is his coworker who is now in jail. Thats is all I know at this point. Goodness!

And.. I've gotta do everything I've put off all turn by this time next week. Luckily I have put off far less thean usual.. but its still a signifigant pressure when all I REALLY want to do is go home and play Morrowind. (Video game I... am... obsessed... with) So. thats the scoop.

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Well. I'm just a little bit enthusiastic about cooking. that is to say. I like cooking a lot and reight now I am especially interested in pinapple upside-down cake. When was the last time you had one? Wouldn't you like to? Here is some info about it. there are tons of recipies online about it. I'm going home to make some right now!